I had a different idea entirely when I first started this. I was super determined to do something about my beloved little dog Bear and his unique “Schipperke” breed. I tried to get this project rolling for a solid week or so, video taping and preparing scripts, uploading them into my editing program and re-arranging them again and again…
To no avail. No matter what I did — nothing was working. It was boring. It was bland. It didn’t make sense. Voice over wasn’t working — NOTHING was working. Between finals, the prospect of moving, work, and other things… I didn’t feel creative enough to crank something viable out for this project and it was stressing me out every day.
Now I don’t know about anyone else, but stress in my life generally translates over into nightmares. A good night’s sleep is just too much to ask for. Out of frustration one morning from waking up from a particularly horrid dream, I went onto my Facebook and posted this:
Shut up. No one likes your passive aggressive nightmares.
Later that evening it dawned on me — I didn’t need to be creative and magical and super detailed — I could just be real. Real with myself and real with my feelings. That’s how my art comes alive… when I can recognize the bad just as much as the good. And these feelings definitely felt bad.
So I decided to have a very real conversation with my subconscious right then and there, and thus, “Dear Subconscious,” was born.