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P6 Final Project

So this will be one of my last posts for this class. We’ve finally reached the point of our final project for my media arts class! We were allowed to do anything we wanted to, and I originally had the idea of a music video with my friend. When my friend bailed on me (that’s showbiz, kid), I was offered to team up with my friends Brian and Derek. Brian told me that they were doing a music video as well, so naturally I was intrigued. He also told me that the girl they originally were planning to use was very flaky. He said that he originally imagined me as the lead in the music video. Needless to say, I was flattered.

Once they extended me the offer to act in what was now our project, I was ecstatic. I had never had much experience acting, and was always under the impression I couldn’t. I was definitely very nervous. I was really hoping that my facial expressions could convey what we were after.

The original story that he explained to me is it’s a first person video in black & white, and it’s a guy going through his daily routine. He wakes up, gets ready for the day, meets his friends, goes to a bar, etc. It’s like he’s basically going through the motions of his life. Then he goes to a park where he used to spend a lot of time with his girlfriend. It all fades to color and she appears. He starts to reminisce what it was like to be with her. You definitely feel the tone of the vide change. Then all of a sudden, she’s gone and it changes to black and white.

He starts to walk to the bridge and he’s looking out across the water. All of a sudden, she appears again. She walks forward and takes his hand. You see clips of what it was like for them to be together. You really feel the happiness and light she brought to his life. It then fades back to black & white, he looks to his left and she’s gone. The video ends with him walking down towards the lake to convey a feeling of loneliness, which is definitely apparent. The original ending was supposed to be that you would see him pull out an urn, and it was supposed to show that it was his late girlfriend. It’s more of a tragic ending, but unfortunately the video could only be 3 minutes maximum.

There’s also one other thing I’d like to touch on. The music! The song we used (and got permission for), was “For Someone” by the band called Why? Very interesting name I thought. The song is absolutely perfect. It starts out with a strong back beat, and the way the camera is showing clips from his life is timed very well. When the female lead comes in, the song slows down and is more relaxing. I couldn’t think of a better song.


When it comes to my experience, it was so fun! It was great to walk around with Brian and Derek and see their creative minds collaborate with mine. Brian was a great director, he gave good direction and Derek gave a lot of great ideas that we used. His storyboard was impeccable! We would all throw out ideas, our creativity  definitely fed off each other. I’ve admired both of their work that I’ve seen in this class, and was so fortunate to work with them. The weather was unusual for Eugene but I definitely couldn’t complain. It was so fun to show different parts of Eugene. It was great exposure, and something I definitely want to keep doing.

Hope you enjoy!

Sincerely,

Hannah

P6 Final Project

So this will be one of my last posts for this class. We’ve finally reached the point of our final project for my media arts class! We were allowed to do anything we wanted to, and I originally had the idea of a music video with my friend. When my friend bailed on me (that’s showbiz, kid), I was offered to team up with my friends Brian and Derek. Brian told me that they were doing a music video as well, so naturally I was intrigued. He also told me that the girl they originally were planning to use was very flaky. He said that he originally imagined me as the lead in the music video. Needless to say, I was flattered.

Once they extended me the offer to act in what was now our project, I was ecstatic. I had never had much experience acting, and was always under the impression I couldn’t. I was definitely very nervous. I was really hoping that my facial expressions could convey what we were after.

The original story that he explained to me is it’s a first person video in black & white, and it’s a guy going through his daily routine. He wakes up, gets ready for the day, meets his friends, goes to a bar, etc. It’s like he’s basically going through the motions of his life. Then he goes to a park where he used to spend a lot of time with his girlfriend. It all fades to color and she appears. He starts to reminisce what it was like to be with her. You definitely feel the tone of the vide change. Then all of a sudden, she’s gone and it changes to black and white.

He starts to walk to the bridge and he’s looking out across the water. All of a sudden, she appears again. She walks forward and takes his hand. You see clips of what it was like for them to be together. You really feel the happiness and light she brought to his life. It then fades back to black & white, he looks to his left and she’s gone. The video ends with him walking down towards the lake to convey a feeling of loneliness, which is definitely apparent. The original ending was supposed to be that you would see him pull out an urn, and it was supposed to show that it was his late girlfriend. It’s more of a tragic ending, but unfortunately the video could only be 3 minutes maximum.

There’s also one other thing I’d like to touch on. The music! The song we used (and got permission for), was “For Someone” by the band called Why? Very interesting name I thought. The song is absolutely perfect. It starts out with a strong back beat, and the way the camera is showing clips from his life is timed very well. When the female lead comes in, the song slows down and is more relaxing. I couldn’t think of a better song.


When it comes to my experience, it was so fun! It was great to walk around with Brian and Derek and see their creative minds collaborate with mine. Brian was a great director, he gave good direction and Derek gave a lot of great ideas that we used. His storyboard was impeccable! We would all throw out ideas, our creativity  definitely fed off each other. I’ve admired both of their work that I’ve seen in this class, and was so fortunate to work with them. The weather was unusual for Eugene but I definitely couldn’t complain. It was so fun to show different parts of Eugene. It was great exposure, and something I definitely want to keep doing.

Hope you enjoy!

Sincerely,

Hannah

P4 Audio W15

With this audio recording, I was trying to accomplish telling an old fable with a sense of mystery and whimsical story telling. I added some sound effects which i downloaded from freesound.org. I downloaded a scary horrifying sound for when the boy meets the wolf, and a flute playing for when the wolf plays for the boy. I really liked this story. I liked how the boy knew he was probably going to die, so he asked to dance. It was his dying wish. I’m not sure if he knew the other dogs would come and scare off the wolf, but it was a clever trick. Also the wolf became aware of his actions and he got what he deserved. He regretted playing for the boy.

P3 Professional Blog Search

I found one! I’m so excited to share the blog called “I Still Shoot Film.”

http://istillshootfilm.org

Really cool layout!

Really cool layout!

This site is really interesting to me. It’s all about photographers who still shoot with film. Film is a medium that has definitely died out, but is still widely appreciated and used by true photographers. There are people that pick up their camera phone and think they are photographers, but they don’t truly appreciate the art of it and how much skill it actually takes to successfully work a camera. These people focus on the art and composition of film and how it should be used. It focuses on the talent of it and how it truly is a wonderful thing.


They have a whole page of resources under their resources tab. It talks about all the places you can develop film and where you can look up more things about cameras and professional photographers.


I think the site is produced incredibly well, and it has an amazing layout. It’s very aesthetically pleasing and I really enjoy scrolling through. Lastly, it has a lot of photos so it’s not just words but it has appealing images. It truly shows the work that goes intro making beautiful photos.


I hope you enjoyed this and use this website to it’s full potential, I know I will.

Sincerely,

Hannah

P2 Scavenger Hunt

Hey everyone,

So this blog is kind of going to turn into my blog for my media arts class for a while. Bear with me while I post all these things, maybe some of you will find it interesting!

– Hannah


To start off the photo scavenger hunt we have:

My teacher Teresa's elective door.

My teacher Teresa’s eclectic door.

The studio with the "blue cyc wall."

The studio with the “blue cyc wall.”

The equipment counter check out. The guy working there decided to spice up my photo a bit.

The equipment counter check out. The guy working there decided to spice up my photo a bit.

The main art gallery on campus.

The main art gallery on campus.

The Art-O-Mat.

The Art-O-Mat.

The reference counter in the library.

The reference counter in the library.

This sculpture is outside the health & wellness building. I think it is so beautiful!

This sculpture is outside the health & wellness building. I think it is so beautiful!

Mary Jo Kreindel's office. All we could get was a picture of the sign.

Mary Jo Kreindel’s office. All we could get was a picture of the sign.

The bus stop.

The bus stop.

Christina Salter's office. My group and I literally went on a wild goose chase to find her office. I was so relieved when we finally found it. She is the media arts advisor after all.

Christina Salter’s office. My group and I literally went on a wild goose chase to find her office. I was so relieved when we finally found it. She is the media arts advisor after all.

The Indie Lab.

The Indie Lab.

The flags in the main building.

The flags in the main building.

Lastly, a construction shot. I liked the lay out of this particular photo, it showed more than just industrial but the actual workers behind it.

Lastly, a construction shot. I liked the lay out of this particular photo, it showed more than just industrial but the actual workers behind it.


As a bonus, I wanted to insert this shot I took which I thought turned out really cool.

It's a reflection in the silver sculpture, but it didn't really encompass the whole thing so I included it as a bonus.

It’s a reflection in the silver sculpture, but it didn’t really encompass the whole thing so I included it as a bonus.

Heyyy, this is for class yay:

Hey there,

My name is Hannah Koppes and I’m 21 years of age. I currently live in Eugene, Oregon. I’m originally from the North West part of Oregon, more familiarly known as Portland. I moved to the states when I was 6 years old because my dad worked for Nike. I was born in The Netherlands, a little bit outside of Amsterdam. I moved to Paris, France when I was 3 and lived there for a few years. My dad speaks fluent French which is pretty cool.


Like I said, I grew up in Portland. I loved going to school when I was younger. It was a lot of fun for me because it was easy. As I got older, I didn’t enjoy it as much anymore. I realized it was because I was taking classes I didn’t really care for. Anyways, now I’m taking this class called Intro to Media Arts, which I really enjoy. The first day my instructor showed me a video by one of my favorite artists; Ok Go. I’ve seen them multiple times in concert so immediately I knew this was going to be a cool class.


I took a year off last year. I was going to the University of Oregon for a while and it didn’t really turn out very well for me. I took a year off so I could figure out what I wanted to study instead of just blindly following a path with no end game. I was thinking about it and realized that I really enjoy film. I love the way movies make me feel, and I love the dynamic of the film industry. Ultimately I want to do my two year associates degree here, then go to cosmetology school. After that hopefully I’ll move to LA and be able to become a production assistant or something in that genre. I could also do make-up on the side as additional income.


Lastly, to conclude this post…I like to take photos, make music, write (as you can tell I have a blog), make movies, go to concerts and hang out with friends. Get to know me, I don’t think you’ll regret it.

Sincerely,

Hannah

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A photo by me: ^^

Never posted this.

I made this this past summer. I never posted it. Obviously I don’t have that job anymore, but it’s basically some clips from my life that I put together. They were moments I really enjoyed, and they are the true definition of nostalgia. I hope you enjoy it, and I’m thinking about making a part 2. Thoughts?

http://youtu.be/QycCUGzG5JA 

Click here ^^

P.S. I know it’s long, but there’s some great stuff in there.

– Hannah

Right back where I started.

Help me if you can, I’m feeling down,
And I do appreciate you being ’round;
Help me get my feet back on the ground,
Won’t you please, please help me?”
– The Beatles


I literally cannot handle my life right now. I NEED HELP.

My life is in shambles, allow me to elaborate:

SO, the last couple posts I was like “blah, blah, I need a job.”

I had one, then lost it. I lost it because recently I got diagnosed with a stomach issue that is aggravated by my anxiety, which has recently gotten worse. So much worse. I sometimes get physically sick to where at my former job, I’d have to go home because my throat would close up, I’d get all hot and sweaty and almost passed out a couple times. I just get anxiety/panic attacks. I got so sick of being sick (no pun intended), to where I drove home to Portland and made an emergency appointment with my doctor. I started seeing a new doctor, and he diagnosed me and put me on this new anxiety medication which is 60mg. I tried to take it and I decided it was too strong, so as of late I haven’t been taking anything and have been trying to calm myself down naturally. It works usually, and I’m very proud of myself for that. My doctor is doing all these tests to see if I have crohn’s disease, or celiacs or whatever. That’s serious stuff. That’s how serious it is. I haven’t found out anything yet, so my health has kind of been put on the back burner at the moment.


Anyways, I got let go from that job which I LOVED. It was so fun, and I loved everyone I worked with so naturally I was devastated when I got let go. I picked myself up by my bootstraps and was like “okay, yeah I’ll find another job it’s cool!”

Nope, hasn’t happened. Also, my dad recently cut me off financially because I’m 21 now. Basically, my mom has been supporting me and I’m literally bleeding her dry. I feel so guilty, and I know there’s not much more she can do. I’ve looked online, and there are jobs available. I don’t know why I haven’t applied yet. I’m just so stressed out I don’t even know where to begin. I’m back where I started, because I literally cannot afford my style of living. I’m locked into this lease now and can’t get out of it. I feel so trapped.

It may just seem like I’m being pessimistic, and there are a lot of good things in my life too. Yeah the whole thing with my ex sucked, but it’s the least of my worries. I’ve started dating again, which is a great thing for me (even though it’s not that big of a deal). Also, a lot of my friends are back in eugene now, so I can hang out with them. I’ve been very bored…


It’s just really hard to be optimistic when all these stresses are on me. They are weighing on me like I almost can’t breathe. I feel like I’m stuck in a rut, I am sisyphus pushing that huge boulder up the hill only for it to roll back to the bottom, and I have to do it all over again. All my efforts seem futile because I’m now starting to see the big picture, only to realize I have no plan. I have a short term plan, but where am I going with all this?

I was thinking of a doing a year long multimedia program at Lane. Then I was thinking of going to cosmetology school in Portland. Finally, I’d be in the film industry doing something (even if it’s getting coffee, I don’t care). I’ve always wanted to work in that industry. I’d eventually move to California, and then go from there. BUT I HAVE NO BIG PICTURE. I don’t have my life planned out and it freaks me out. I mean no one does right?

I just need to find a job, that’s my mini-plan right now. Sorry for the venting, any advice?

Sincerely,
Hannah

Mistakes.

“Although it hurts,
I’ll be the first to say that I was wrong;
Oh, I know I’m probably much too late,
To try and apologize for my mistakes”

– Bruno Mars

I royally screwed myself.

I had the best person in my arms, and I let them slip through my fingers. Along the way, I lost myself. I became so immersed in that relationship that I forgot who I was and what my goals were. I was stagnant, while the rest of the world kept on spinning. I didn’t move forward, but backwards. I took regressing steps in the way where I didn’t worry about myself. I only cared about the others around me, and lived vicariously through them. I lost the love of my life, but I can only blame myself. No one wants to be with someone who isn’t progressing in life. No one wants to be with someone who has disappointed everyone she’s ever cared about. I know that that may be a drastic statement, but it has been true at some point in my life.

Looking back on it, I really wish I had a time machine or some sort of do-over. Just as I was starting to get my shit together, I lost it all. I was left alone, and lost. The love for me wasn’t enough to overcome all my failures. As time has been going on, for about a month now I’ve realized I’m completely alone. No one will ever understand what’s going on but me. I’ve realized how alone you can be, even when you have friends. My brain is a dark and scary place where I don’t want to be alone. Now, I’ve never been more alone.

I don’t want to be alone, that’s one of my biggest fears. I feel like the only people who understand me are the singers who sing my thoughts. They are my solace, and that’s not a good feeling. I only have so many people I can talk to, and I have limited resources. Everyone talks about “the world is yours, you just have to grab it!” Or whatever. I’ve learned that’s not true. You are alone in this world, and you are the only one you can save yourself from complete darkness. I’m slipping, and I’m scared.

I’m vulnerable, and my security blanket is gone. When I was with him, my anxiety subsided. I was so secure in all my choices because I knew I had someone who would always back me up. I had someone who loved me through all my flaws. I was so comfortable and didn’t want to move. I’m so angry, but angry at myself because I did this. I lost him. It’s all my fault, and I’ve tried everything to fix it but I can’t. I can’t. Those are the hardest words to make yourself say. As humans we don’t want to give up, and I’m not. But there are some things you have to give up on. I don’t want to give up on this, but it seems like a futile effort. I just wish I had some sort of sign to know it’s not over. I’ve received nothing but negative reinforcement.

There are scars, deep ones on my heart. Who would ever want someone who is so damaged? Someone who will never, ever be the same. Someone who lost everything. They were the center of my universe (which I know is not healthy), but all those cords holding me to that center were severed. Cut, without warning. How do you stay on the ground if you’re free falling? I don’t know. I don’t know if this will ever get better.

This is the first time I’ve ever suffered a true broken heart. Truly broken, I am. It’s not fair. I want a chance to change, but there’s so much damage already done. How do I fix this? People tell me to focus on myself, but how can I do that when I don’t know where I stand.

I know I’m just venting, but like I said I have no one to talk to. I’ve never felt this way, and it’s scary. It’s getting hard to pretend I’m okay. I’m not.

– Hannah

What Do You Do When The Man Who Broke Your Heart Isn’t An Asshole?

Hannah:

This chick knows exactly what I’m thinking.

Originally posted on The Quiet Things That No One Ever Knows:

Break ups are not easy. Especially not if you are the one being broken up with. Even if you weren’t happy in the relationship or if you were considering breaking up with the person or if the break up is truly better for you, there is something about someone looking at you and basically telling you “You were not good enough to keep.” that just destroys a person. Even if that isn’t the explicit reason the person has broken up with you it always feels like it. Maybe they say it’s because you deserve better or because they’re dealing with a lot and just can’t be the person they want to be for you. Even that feels like “I am going through a lot right now and you are not important enough or worthy enough to be by my side as I fight my battles.”

However, usually when someone breaks…

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